I wasn’t comfortable at first but i did it anyways because i trusted him

I was in a stable relationship during covid, so I thought. I met my first boyfriend through a friend of a friend at school, at first it was going well, we were young and happy during Covid, then things took a spiral, I got asked to send nudes. I wasn’t comfortable at first but I did it anyways because I trusted him. Later on in the years I got told many stories about him, “he raped me” was a major thing i got told. At first I thought it was a lie, then I found out it was the truth. When I said no I got guilt tripped into “you don’t love me” it ruined me as a person now I still get flashbacks and worried even though I’m in a happy relationship now. He had phases of taking photos of us having sex or saving screenshots me

Annelisa