At the age of 8 i was exposed to porn and through that became addicted

At the age of 8 I was exposed to pornography and through that became addicted. This lead to me being punished for viewing these materials and altering how I viewed sex. At 11 when I started secondary school, where social media was everyone’s everything, I was begged by boys I thought I loved for pictures of myself as a way to show them I love them back. This lead to those pictures being sent to group chats, posted online and shared in public. A private thing became so public and out of my control, and when I was a child. It was a warped way of love but I was never taught what love was. I shouldn’t of needed to do that for affection but the exploitation to sex from so young has changed my perception of everything in that category, that that’s what I thought I needed to show and receive love, do the things and be the things that I’ve seen because that’s all I knew. I am now 21 and still living with the damage from these issues, and the aftermath of all of these problems, using therapy and my own strength to rebuild my life and make my younger self proud of the woman I am going to become after all she has suffered and that she has watch me suffer.