i got pressured to send nudes At 15. I had been asked to send an underwear pic, and this guy sent me a dick pic back. He then kept sending and asking me to send something in return. Eventually i did, But i didnt want to. I felt pressured die to the fact he had sent me things. I had done this before, however the guy didnt send me anything and just told me to send him things, Everyday, And i gave up saying no. These havent been leaked, but every day im thinking, Why did i do it? What happens if it does? I dont want people to find out, and i dont want other people to feel like this and live their life in fear. Im currently at the point of suicidal thoughts due to this, and i Just hope it will get better. I regret it all and i quite frankly wish this didnt happen and i could message my male friends without the fear of them asking for or sending pictures.

When I was in primary school, I was friends with a girl who had obviously been sexually assaulted at some point. Obviously, me being 9 I didn’t know that. Anyway she introduced me to sexual content when I was only 9 and She would tell me in detail everything and Me being young I didn’t even know what she was talking about until one day I decided to open my ipad and search for these videos. I was scared and I immediately ran to the bathroom crying and shaking I remember I didnt know what was happening and what I was feeling I thought I was going to wet myself And since then Ive never indulged in anything sexually because it makes me sick.

A couple of months ago I got in a relationship with this guy in my school who at first I thought he was really sweet But as I got comfortable I found out he was actually kind of messed up. It started of with him sending me gore videos he’d found online which made me feel really disturbed as I’d been exposed to media like that in the past. It almost seemed like it was normal to him and he found it funny. After a while I felt trapped in the relationship with him and the relationship became sexual very quickly at first It wasnt so bad but then it became obsessive and He had very weird kinks which he’d seen online by watching porn. He would want to play weird games with me and Offen used violence when I wasn’t comfortable with it But I didn’t want to make him mad. Now we’ve broken up And i realised how much I didn’t know about him. He was in discord servers which promoted terrorism, He was in racist groupchats And he was into r**e and p**o pornography which is really disturbing and shocking after you trusted someone so much to be betrayed Like that.

growing up I had a lot of trouble with expressing myself and I found it difficult to open up with how I really felt I had a kinda small friendship group so I reached out to people online. My self esteem was really low so when I was 12 I used to pretend to be someone I wasnt with my fake persona of a 17 year old boy. I wanted to be recognised so I would make people feel sorry for me I made a lot of friends and I was constantly texting them I became reliant on them Now im older I know what I did was wrong and I should have just spoken to people about How I really felt but I didn’t feel comfortable.